can you give up your believes, if they are so perfect, it's unachievable to many?

what is wrong when time after time, the same problem arises?

why jump into a rage? why?






i feel,

the ouside slowly hardening,

i can't breath...











i feel,

the inside falling,

falling to a place i never knew,

i feel cold, cold from within,

i'm lost,

confused,

why should it hurt to be right?







soon, i think soon,

it'll be alright...

either i have steeled myself cold,


or to fall too long, into the little place,




a small little place that you put me.




is it so sad that when you cry, you mock yourself?





i can't breath







i can't breath.





























i can't breath.

You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that you were strong enough
To even make a start
But you'll never find
Peace of mind
Till you listen to your heart

People
You can never change the way the feel
Better let them do just what they will
For they will
If you let them
Steal your heart from you
People
Will always make a lover feel a fool
But you knew I loved you
We could have shown them all
We should have seen love through

Fooled me with the tears in your eyes
Covered me with kisses and lies
So goodbye
But please don't take my heart

You are far
I'm never gonna be your star
I'll pick up the pieces
And mend my heart
Maybe I'll be strong enough
I don't know where to start
But I'll never find
Peace of mind
While I listen to my heart

But remember this
Every other kiss
That you'll ever give
Long as we both live
When you need the hand of another man
One you really can surrender with
I will wait for you
Like I always do
There's something there
That can't compare with any other

You are far
When I could have been your star
You listened to people
Who scared you to death
And from my heart
Strange that I was wrong enough
To think you'd love me too
I guess you were kissing a fool
You must have been kissing a fool

have you ever been happy before? like just happy? something that makes you smile and smile and you don't ever want to change that moment in time?

well sometimes thinking about you will make me smile....

you are different in my dreams, but you are everything that i hope you would be...

love is the answer, at least for most of the questions in my heart, like why are we here and where do we go, and how come it's so hard.

it's not always easy but life can be deceiving , and it's always when we're together.

i like to close the curtains and pretend that there's no world outside, and it's just me and you, and not so many things we got to do. and if the telephone rings, we don't have to pick it up, we don't need to, because we've got everything we need right here, and everything we need is enough. it's just so easy when the whole world fits in side of your arms, we really don't have to pay attention to anything else.

all of these dreams find a way into my dreams, but they'll be gone when the morning light sings, and brings new things, for tomorrow night, they'll be gone too, too many things i got to do.

but sometimes, all of things dreams might find a way into my day to day scene, and I'll be under the impression that i was somewhere in between.

in between dreams

it's a very nice feeling to know that people care... haha
and although i'm the lousy person i am, i'm thankful for those out there that care for me...

well cheryl is comin back in a few days and i can't wait to see her again, after that long long time of being in Austalia....

slowly, slowly, my life is falling back into place again,
thanks to all these people who always seem to make things right...

i've got alot of growing up to do....

thanks for everything... i'm so happy today...

haha...
should have less time for everything since i'm preparing for my a's but still, lok at my past record, i'm blogging more often now....

anyways, i was watching this taiwan divination show on friday night. hmmm, freaks me out sometimes by the accuracy of the prediction.

well there was this one little question part to tell your personality (love-wise).
so if your were to choose one of the four below which would it be?
1) a book of curses
2)a magic lamp
3)an invisible cloak
4)i forgot...

well if you did choose the book, chances are you are a difficult lover to please. yo are full of yourself and you always want things to be run your way, and you know you know best, it's your way or the highway. so you better chill on your love expectations cause sometimes your other half may not even know what they did wrong, and at the end of the day everyone gets unhappy, so just enjoy the company and not be so you....

the only comfort you get from this is that i choose this too.. so high-five... but still we got to chill... man that's so true, and i think that kind of thing does not only apply to love. i think it's like my personality. i hardly take people's advice, unless it's really really good. and of course you'd have to be a somebody.

anyway, if you chosen the second option, chances are that you are almost an opposite of the first. you give in too easily and you think that letting your other half have it their way is an option to less conflict and a peaceful road, besides you are just happy with being together, and you'd go with anything your darling tells you.

yeah, hurray for you... i think you, magic lamp people would have a lot of friends go very far in life, cause everyone who comes in your way is just going to love you... but beware, to some, this may be the source of conflict, if you are too "anything", but generally, man! everyone's gona love you.

crap feel a litle guilty for blogging, better read up a little.. till then...
i'm feelnig a little happy today, so i shall bless you with good luck...

then if you choose the thrid, i'm so sorry i don't remember... haha.... remember i'm curse book... haha...