lately,

it's not been so nice...

there's been alot of hiccups here and there, and i'm begining to fear for the worse, or maybe i'm just paranoid.

i've begin to read into my twichings lately, twich on the right =bad, left=good, kinda stupid, but surprisingly it works with uncanny precision....

ups aren't that high but the lows just keep going down...

now i feel like i'm standing at the top of a small hill, it started off with following the blooming of flowers, and i followed, and followed, up the hill where more flowers grew, but now it's come the time to fall, and it feels like no one is there to catch me....

fall and if i die no one knows....

i think i miss feeling sad, feeling down, i think that's why it makes the happier things feel less special...

i find lately, i've not been treating the ones i love right...

as people are taking me for granted i'm doing the same to the poeple i hold most dear to me...

but sometimes i just don't have the courage.....