i feel like i'm drowning now, in people's distrust, in people's anger....

i feel like i'm suffocating from the new air that i breath...

i feel like a lost child, amid a sea of people...

and i feel all these because of my new responsibility....

here i am, one who stands before you i shout,

all of them want me to shout yet no one listens...

they walk a path that leads them back,

and they want someone to lead a different path,

yet,

they step infront and ask to be followed,

why then do i call myself a leader?

why i am not given the chance to prove my ways?

or is this just the time they need to learn my ways?

i'm sorry if this doesn't make sense to you... i'm just writing what i feel

sometimes, not knowing can be a blessing.... don't you think? no worries.... although it may seem like your mind is a blank or should we say white, like a piece of paper, like you jave no knowledge, but sometimes this white can also be like the soft fluffy clouds that cushion one from reality...

ha, you may think that being in one's own bubble, can be said to be ignorant about the things that go on around you, but sometimes, just slow down and think for a moment, is it really that important? is it really important to go on in life, like everyone else, doing what can be done, sloving all problems, do we sometimes have to do it at the expense of happiness... don't get me wrong here, i don't mean to say that we should not go to school or not carry out our duties, i'm just saying, i would be nice, if i didn't know my problems just as yet, it's kinda one of those "it is better to be loved than never be loved before" kinda feeling okie....

*sigh* maybe i'm just escaping from my problems now...
maybe, i'm not up to it this time, like any other time,
is this time in my life just a phase like everyone says it is?
i feel that it has got something to do with me...
i don't know, i really don't....
or maybe i just don't want to realise it just as yet....